Bad Start to the New Year.

It's just one thing after another.

I'll start with my aunt Sharron. She was diagnosed with colon cancer about 9 months ago I believe. She was in very good spirits, she was fighting it. The last few weeks she was doing very well, very skinny, but that's expect able under the circumstances with chemo and everything. A few days before New Year's Eve she went to the hospital because her throat wouldn't keep anything down. It was closing up.

New Year's Eve the doctors told her that she had about 3 days left to live. January 3, 2010 at 1:16 in the morning, she passed away. - It came out of no where. My aunt was only 49 years old, she didn't even get to live half her life. I'm not mad at God, because I know he didn't do this to us. I know that is sometimes the first question asked when things like this happen "Why is God doing this to me?"

But why not you? Why are YOU so special that you don't deserve it. If not you, it will just be somebody else. I have strong faith in God and I know that he took my aunt so she didn't have to suffer anymore. God is taking care of her now. But anyways, God rest with my aunt's soul.

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Now, my Aunt Barb. I believe she is like 79 years old. Such a sweet old woman who never ever in her life complained, she was truly always a happy-go-lucky type of woman. A heart full of Gold. I would say about 8 or 9 years ago she had a massive stroke. But she is strong-willed woman and she pulled through a while after.

Maybe if she never had that stroke years ago, things would be different. But we can't change the past, everything happens for a reason. Now my aunt started to develop dementia, which is sort of like Alzheimer's disease but worse I think. She started to get that maybe a year or 2 ago. She's pretty much completely gone. But she is still so happy.

A few weeks ago she had another stroke, which lead to a heart attack later on that week. My Aunt Barb was suppose to die like 2 weeks ago the doctors say. Everybody is in awe that she is still hanging on. She is on medication so she's not in pain, but this dear woman hasn't eaten or drank anything in over a week. But she is still hanging on. She's totally out of it.

I think that she was waiting for my Aunt Sharron to go, so she can go with her. Weird how things like that happen. Maybe you don't believe in what I believe, maybe it's pure crazy. But it puts peace in my mind that it may be true. They may go together. But where ever they are or where ever they go I pray that they are both at peace and are with each other and my other family members up there.

My heart goes out to my Aunt Dotty though. Losing her daughter and now waiting for her sister to go. - We are playing the waiting game with my Aunt Barb, I think that's the worse. Just knowing when that person is going to die at any day, any minute, any second now.

Some people think they would want to know what day and time they will spend their last day on Earth, but do you really? Do you really want to know the day you're going to die? Just waiting and counting all the days til your last breath on Earth? I used to want to know, but when you put it into perspective, I think I would pass. I will die when I die.

Rest In Peace Auntie Sharron.